Another first birthday.

Can you even believe I’m writing this post already? I swear I had this baby a few months ago and now my precious boy will be ONE!

Those of you who have been with me from the start will know that I was also very emotional about my daughter’s 1st birthday (you can read that here) and if I’m honest I was the same at her subsequent birthdays too. When did I turn into that mum? Please tell me I’m not alone in this. Birthdays just seem to really emphasise how quickly time is going and fast children grow up.

I think there are a few reasons why I feel so bittersweet about my boy turning one.

Firstly, he’s my baby! Since he came along, Little Knight became my big girl and he took the position of little, scrumptious baby (which he has filled perfectly). Now he’s making his way into the toddler zone and I am just not ready for that. He’ll be 1, he’s walking now, he eats real food with his real teeth. We’ve decided to get him measured for his first shoes this week and I’m just not ready. I know they say time flies but this last year has DISAPPEARED.

He might be our last baby. Mr Knight and I don’t know what our future holds and if it’s just the two for us then we’ll be saying goodbye to the baby days for good. That is so hard! img_6619.jpg

BUT I’ve accepted that this is just the way I parent! I am an emotional mother (just like my own!!) and that’s ok! I’ll probably cry at every birthday, assembly and school report forevermore.

This weekend we are having a party for our boy to celebrate his first year with so many of our favourite people and it’s going to be really special. His actual birthday is on Monday which Mr Knight has off work so we’ve got swimming and a nice lunch out planned followed by a big nap. What more could a 1 year old want?

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

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A new year.

First of all, I hope you all had a lovely Christmas!

We had such a busy week leading up to it (which I spoke about in my last post) so we had a really chilled out one and it was perfect.

We had the morning at home before going to church and then spent the day eating, drinking and playing with new toys at my parent’s house. Bliss!

Goodbye 2017.

Now, I’m not really one the whole ‘new year, new me!’ thing but the end of a year does naturally make you want to reflect and think of things you can change.

I really don’t like big, vague resolutions that get thrown about like ‘be happier’ or ‘lose weight’ or ‘clean more’ for example, they nearly always make you feel a bit of a failure as they are just so ambiguous. Yes, I would like to be happier and lose weight and have a spotless house but day to day these things are too vague and unattainable.

So, here are my ‘resolutions’ that are much more realistic and that will make me feel good.

  1. I’m going to buy more lounge wear. (Does that sound as ridiculous as I think it does? It’s number 1 too as it’s the most important!) I never feel like it’s worth spending the money as nobody really sees them and I’m just relaxing at home but I’m making myself more of a priority. Is there any better feeling than soft, new comfies? Absolutely not.
  2. I’m going to (mostly) get to bed by 10pm. I spend so many evenings lounging on the sofa watching complete rubbish and then I regret it the next morning when I’ve been up all night with the baby.
  3. I want to try to update my blog more often. I love doing it but it’s hard to give it the time it deserves. I enjoy reading my old posts though and I like documenting my life, especially with the children being so young so I want to find more time for it.
  4. We want to move house at some point in the future so need to up our money saving game. Obviously this is AFTER I’ve purchased new lounge wear… priorities.
  5. I really MUST drink more water. I’m still breastfeeding too so I’m not drinking anywhere near what my body needs then I seem surprised when I get headaches.

I could write the longest list about how I’m going to meal plan every week and stop my daily tea and biscuit binge but I just know that I won’t do it and I’ll feel rubbish when I don’t.

Maybe it’s because I’m getting older, but I’m realising that you can’t change everything about yourself, and nor should you want to. Resolutions should be about making slight improvements to your day, not trying to turn into a different person.

So, from me and mine to you and yours, Happy New Year!

What, if any, resolutions are you thinking about for 2018? I’d love to hear them! Do you have any requests for future blog posts? Again, just let me know and I’ll do my best.

Thanks for reading!

Knight Mummy x

It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

And breathe.

The last few weeks have been so busy that I think I’ve only been sitting down to breastfeed! I had all of these ideas of Christmas blog posts that I could write but it’s just not happened. Instead, here is a long, rambley post about why things are a little extra crazy at the moment.

Let me walk you through it.

Obviously, it’s Christmas! I am beyond excited. It’s Little Knight’s first Christmas that she understands and Baby Knight’s first Christmas ever so it feels really special. With that, of course, comes all of the chaos! We’ve done Santa visits and going out to buy the tree and looking at Christmas lights and this year she’s at preschool which adds so many things to the jobs list; presents for the teachers, the Christmas Fayre, decorating an elf competition… you get the idea! This is on top of all the presents and cards that need to be organised. Not that I’m complaining, I actually love it all, but it’s just a busy time of year.

What is extra special about this year is that my oldest best friend (of nearly 16 years!) is getting married a few days before Christmas. I’m a bridesmaid and my daughter is a flower girl and we’re so honoured and excited! With that comes dress fittings and hen dos and wedding rehearsals and shopping for shoes and nail appointments and all the rest of it. Again, all lovely, but very busy! My calendar has never looked so full.

All you parents will understand just how much preparation goes into a day trip with young children, let alone an all day wedding and overnight stay. I have lists EVERYWHERE. I find preparation is key when dealing with young children and events. I’m considering packing a whole bag with just snacks and stickers. That should do it.

Last week we were hit with ALL THE SNOW which is almost unheard of for us. The kids loved it and even though I’m not usually a fan, it was beautiful and really got us in a Christmassy mood. However we were pretty much snowed in for 5 days, so not much was being achieved and ticked off the to do list!

I’ve been feeling productive though and I’ve managed to tick off most things now. I wanted to enjoy the Christmas break and not be stressing over wrapping presents so I’ve forced myself to get stuff done, I’m usually Queen Procrastinator. (Oh I need to fill in this form? Well I better just tidy my sock drawer first… )

I’m not bragging though, my house is a complete mess and I REALLY need to wash my hair but something’s gotta give!

Little Knight had her last day at preschool today and my husband only has 2 days left of work so we’re all getting ready for a nice break. This is probably the only time in the year where my husband is off work and we’re just at home, normally it’s for a holiday or event or whatever, so just having time at home together is really special.

Christmas Day will be fairly relaxed too. We’ll be home in the morning, even though we always spend Christmas with family we like to keep these few hours to just the 4 of us, then off to church and then to my parents house for the rest of the day where I’ll probably put my pjs on at 2pm. Perfect.

How’re your festive preparations going? Hope it’s not too stressful! How do you plan on celebrating? I love hearing about other people’s Christmas traditions.

Thanks for reading and Merry Christmas!

Knight Mummy x

Beyond the mother.

When you become a parent, suddenly your whole life revolves around someone else. Babies and young children are completely dependent on you so your days are often just about keeping them alive. Everything you do and every decision you make has to have somebody else’s needs factored in first.

Which is all fine, I mean, you kind of know that when you get the job but I think it’s all too easy to completely lose who you are amongst the chaos.

It can be so difficult to have little control over your body when you’re pregnant. It is miraculous and incredible and such a blessing but that doesn’t mean that it’s also easy. I really struggled physically with sickness and heartburn but also mentally as my body was changing and I was putting weight on. This was even harder with my second pregnancy as I’d worked so hard to lose weight after the first time so seeing myself getting bigger again really upset me.

You spend approximately 40 weeks growing a gorgeous baby and then, obviously, it’s time to get them out. It doesn’t matter how you go about that, I think whatever happens your body is left in a right state afterwards! I had two completely different labours but both times I was left with stitches, bruising, swelling and a sad looking, deflated belly (NOT deflated as in small, you understand. More like a 6 month pregnant belly but saggy. Lovely.)

In the early days you obviously have this new person to get to know and look after whilst healing from the birth and dealing with insane hormone fluctuations. Naturally, you’re probably not putting your heels on or hitting the gym (but fair play if you are!) and nobody would expect you to, you’ve just had a baby! But I think it’s so easy to continue like that until you feel a bit lost.

At some point, whenever it feels right, you need to start finding yourself in that postpartum fog and do things for yourself and not just your children/partner/house/job.

It took until my baby boy was about 9 months old for me to remember myself. I started just by buying a book and actually reading it. I know. Shocking. And it felt great. A few evenings a week I would have a long shower once the kids were in bed, use a face mask and lie in bed with my book. It seems so trivial but it’s almost like it kickstarted me making myself a priority every now and then. That famous saying ‘you can’t pour from an empty cup’ is so true.

When you’re feeling good, you can give your best to your family.

I was still wearing a lot of maternity clothes just because they were comfy and convenient so I packed them all away and forced myself to actually look in my wardrobe and buy things for me when I was shopping. It wasn’t anything expensive, but it felt good to shift some of my focus back onto myself.

I walk at least 40 minutes every day now as my daughter is in nursery but I also like to try and get a couple of workouts in throughout the week. Again, it’s good to focus on myself and look after my body as it’s served me well over the last few years! I also find I’m more positive and patient after a bit of exercise which is always useful when I spend my days refereeing a cruising baby and a threenager.

This is something that is obviously different for everyone, it’s just my personal experience. I’m not writing this to ‘show off’, I just hope it can encourage one mum to ignore the laundry for an hour and have a long bath or buy that bag that you loved but put back on the shelf.

Basically, you’re important too, Mama!

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

All settled in.

So, needless to say I completely fell off the blogging bandwagon.

My last post (which you can find here) was about my 3 year old getting ready to start nursery and as we’re coming up to the end of her first half term, I thought it’d be a good time to post a little update.

I was a nervous wreck on her first day. I was all big, manic smiles and ‘oh WOW you’re going to have so much fun!!!’ on the outside but I felt like I was constantly holding back a big cry. She actually wasn’t too sad when I left but I don’t think she really knew what was going on. I tried to ask her teacher if they would call me if she needed me and I just started crying and had to leave. Thankfully a few other mums were really kind and told me they had been the same, which helped as I felt like I’d made a bit of a scene!

I spent those first 3 hours clock watching and desperately trying to fill the time until I could go and get her. When I got there the teachers said that she’d had a few teary moments but they managed to keep distracting her. She obviously knew what to expect after this as every time I took her in since she was really upset when we said goodbye. Every giant sob and ‘I want my mummy!’ felt like a stab to the heart. I cried walking home every day for the first week or so.

Despite this though, she never said that she didn’t like it or didn’t want to go and was always excited in the morning beforehand so I knew that she liked nursery and everyone there but it was just the leaving me that was upsetting her.

However, I am SO PLEASED to finally be able to say that as of last week she has stopped being upset at drop off and is really happy whilst she’s there! She seems to have grown up so much in such a short space of time. She loves ‘playing school’ and names her toys after children in her class which is so lovely to watch.


It’s taken us a few weeks to get into our new routine. Obviously beforehand we could just roll through each day and do whatever we wanted but I’m really enjoying having more structure to our day. Also, the 10 minute walk 4 times a day is helping to shift those final few baby pounds!

I actually enjoy the hours where she’s at nursery now as I know she’s happy and having much more fun than if she was at home. It also means that Baby Knight and I get to have some time on our own and he is such a good lunch date.


I never tell her I’ve missed her as I don’t want her to feel sad about it but it is odd sometimes when I want to tell her something and she’s not there. Is it weird that I miss her when certain songs come on the radio? Little Knight loves a good kitchen disco.

My favourite part of the day is picking her up and hearing about her afternoon. I’m so proud of how well she has settled in. She is definitely ready for a week off now though, poor child is exhausted!

Also, we’ve now started applying for schools for next September… the parent anxiety/stress just never ends!

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

Starting Nursery.

So, Little Knight starts Nursery NEXT. WEEK. This post is a bit rough and raw but reading it over and over to edit is making me feel so sad. So this is it. 
I ordered name labels and bought all of the things she needed ages ago, thinking it was still ages away so I didn’t have to think about it too much. However, now it’s next week and I need to get her all ready to go when I’m not feeling very ready at all.

Now, when I’m being logical I KNOW that this will be brilliant. She will get so much more stimulation than I can provide and will thrive with the other children. The teachers are all lovely and she’ll learn so much. We will all benefit from having more structure and routine to our days and the weekends will be extra special. I’ll actually have some 1:1 time with Baby Knight too which we’ll both love.

But, I’m not the kind of person who is always logical. I am a sensitive soul and wear my heart on my sleeve. And so is my girl. How will she cope without me? What if people aren’t kind? What if they don’t understand what she’s saying? What if she struggles with her coat? What if she thinks I’ve deserted her? Etc etc etc.

Little Knight has never been away from me, my husband or immediate family before. She used to really struggle when separated from us but has improved so much over the last year. This is just the next step. But it feels like a huge one! 
I cannot wait to read this back in a few months and think “it wasn’t even that bad!” Right now I just keep thinking of her first week of drop offs and it makes me feel so sad. We talk about nursery all the time and she’s excited to go but I know when I say goodbye she’s going to get really upset and I’m going to have to do my best big smile, kiss and goodbye. I’m sure I’ll then cry all the way home and sit and look at baby photos of her whilst clock watching. Such a great use of time.

We’ve planned an exciting trip at the weekend to celebrate her first week. I think it’ll be nice for us both to have something to look forward to and we’ll both need a treat! Then we can just rest as she’ll probably be exhausted. 
I know a lot of you will probably be reading this thinking “IT’S NURSERY! Stop being so dramatic!” but I won’t write a chirpy little post when I’m finding it so emotional. Please let me know if you felt similarly or how your child settled into childcare/nursery/pre school. I’m hoping I won’t be the only teary parent at the school gates!

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

Turning three.

So it’s happened. My little baby, the one who made me a mama, has had her THIRD birthday and it feels so incredibly grown up!

Turning 3 means big changes in the Knight household as she’ll be starting nursery in September. I have really mixed emotions about it all and it’s weighing on my mind but I think I’ll give it a post of it’s own.


ANYWAY. We had a super busy couple of weeks in July. Baby Knight had his dedication at church and then we had a family garden party to celebrate. (WHY is it such hard work hosting at your own home?! I ended up painting 16 fence panels that week when in reality nobody cares about my fence!) Little Knight also had a home visit from her teachers and then a ‘stay and play’ session at nursery. It was my husband’s birthday and then Little Knight’s birthday within a few days of each other. Whilst all of this was happening I was prepping and packing for a week holidaying in Devon. I was relieved to finally get away!

We kept Little Knight’s actual birthday quite relaxed due to being so busy. I felt a bit guilty about not planning her a party (yes, I’m that mother who feels The Guilt about everything.) but she really enjoyed being able to play with all of her presents throughout the day. 
The next day we packed up the car and embarked on a 3.5 hour drive to Devon. The kids were brilliant and we only had to stop once which was much better than I dared hope for. We stayed in a Manor House and were very well looked after by the lovely lady who owned it. My parents, sister, brother in law and niece all came too and we all had THE BEST time.
We ate scones, went to the beach, shopped, went swimming, visited beautiful little towns and generally just enjoyed spending time together. Baby Knight and Little Knight were so well behaved and just loved being busy and going out all the time. 
We had a little tea party on the Sunday evening so that Little Knight could have a birthday cake. Every time I had asked her what she wanted for her birthday in the weeks previous she had just requested a birthday cake. I’m enjoying that while it lasts as I imagine next year I might get a shopping list. 
We’ve never been to this part of Devon before so we had lots of exploring to do. Little Knight started each morning with a “So. What we doing today?”

Mr Knight hadn’t used any annual leave for months so we really appreciated having a whole week of quality time together. It’s a lot easier getting out and about when you’re not outnumbered! We’ve all already booked to come back again next year as we enjoyed it so much and I can’t wait! It’s a bit crazy to imagine as Little Knight will be finishing her year of nursery and getting ready for SCHOOL (you think I’m being dramatic this year, just wait!) and Baby Knight will be running around.

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x