Another 1st birthday celebration.

It’s happened! My tiny baby turned ONE even though I’ve told him to stop growing up hundreds of time. Sob.

We had the best time celebrating though. We hired the room at our church and threw him a big dinosaur party and I was so pleased with the end result.

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We hired a little soft play which included a slide, soft shapes, rides on, see saw, space hoppers and, his absolute favourite, a ball pit. We had quite a varied age range of guests but they all seemed to really enjoy it and, most importantly, the birthday boy was in his element.

I also did an activity table for the older children with dinosaur masks, colouring, stickers, rubber dinosaur toys and temporary tattoos which I was really pleased with as everything got used.

I filled the room with every dinosaur banner I could find, I had spent many evenings scrolling through eBay, Instagram and Pinterest in preparation. The real stars of the show however were Mr Knight’s dinosaur balloons which he was incredibly proud of!

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Turning one isn’t all fun and games though! Our boy partied so hard that he had to have an hour nap half way through. We just about managed to do his cake and sing happy birthday before he fell fast asleep! It’s hard work being the host so we’ll let him off.

 

His big sister had a brilliant time too. She can be so shy and would’ve really struggled in a situation like this before so it was amazing to see her playing with other children and dancing and just being so happy. The party took quite a lot of preparation but it was so worth it to see how much they loved it.

I didn’t do traditional party bags as I wasn’t 100% sure who was coming and again, we had such a wide age range of children so everyone just went home with a nice slice of cake.

It was so good to have a day just completely focused on our boy. Being the second baby, that probably hasn’t happened since he was actually born!

Thank you to everyone who came and celebrated with us.

Afterwards we came home and the mass ‘open every present in sight’ explosion occurred. I’d had every intention of doing lovely thank you cards for everyone but it was impossible to keep track of who had bought what! As usual, good intentions are all I’ve got!

His actual birthday was on the Monday, Mr Knight had it off work and Little Knight missed preschool so we could enjoy the day together. The kids both woke up in such a foul mood and the weather was AWFUL so it looked like it was going to be a fail but we managed to save the day. We went for lunch at Frankie and Benny’s as it’s become a bit of a family favourite and we went swimming in the afternoon which they both really loved. Even with the massive palaver of getting everybody changed it was worth it! We definitely need to start taking them regularly. On the evening we went for a Chinese takeaway and chocolate cake at my parent’s house which was the perfect end to the day.

I have no idea what to do with all of his new toys… this boy is just so loved! He has had the biggest smile on his face throughout his celebrations so I know that he’s had a great time. AND I didn’t even cry once! Success!

Happy Birthday, my gorgeous little bear. I love you more than words and I cannot wait for another year of your cheeky little ways.

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

 

 

Another first birthday.

Can you even believe I’m writing this post already? I swear I had this baby a few months ago and now my precious boy will be ONE!

Those of you who have been with me from the start will know that I was also very emotional about my daughter’s 1st birthday (you can read that here) and if I’m honest I was the same at her subsequent birthdays too. When did I turn into that mum? Please tell me I’m not alone in this. Birthdays just seem to really emphasise how quickly time is going and fast children grow up.

I think there are a few reasons why I feel so bittersweet about my boy turning one.

Firstly, he’s my baby! Since he came along, Little Knight became my big girl and he took the position of little, scrumptious baby (which he has filled perfectly). Now he’s making his way into the toddler zone and I am just not ready for that. He’ll be 1, he’s walking now, he eats real food with his real teeth. We’ve decided to get him measured for his first shoes this week and I’m just not ready. I know they say time flies but this last year has DISAPPEARED.

He might be our last baby. Mr Knight and I don’t know what our future holds and if it’s just the two for us then we’ll be saying goodbye to the baby days for good. That is so hard! img_6619.jpg

BUT I’ve accepted that this is just the way I parent! I am an emotional mother (just like my own!!) and that’s ok! I’ll probably cry at every birthday, assembly and school report forevermore.

This weekend we are having a party for our boy to celebrate his first year with so many of our favourite people and it’s going to be really special. His actual birthday is on Monday which Mr Knight has off work so we’ve got swimming and a nice lunch out planned followed by a big nap. What more could a 1 year old want?

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

And breathe.

The last few weeks have been so busy that I think I’ve only been sitting down to breastfeed! I had all of these ideas of Christmas blog posts that I could write but it’s just not happened. Instead, here is a long, rambley post about why things are a little extra crazy at the moment.

Let me walk you through it.

Obviously, it’s Christmas! I am beyond excited. It’s Little Knight’s first Christmas that she understands and Baby Knight’s first Christmas ever so it feels really special. With that, of course, comes all of the chaos! We’ve done Santa visits and going out to buy the tree and looking at Christmas lights and this year she’s at preschool which adds so many things to the jobs list; presents for the teachers, the Christmas Fayre, decorating an elf competition… you get the idea! This is on top of all the presents and cards that need to be organised. Not that I’m complaining, I actually love it all, but it’s just a busy time of year.

What is extra special about this year is that my oldest best friend (of nearly 16 years!) is getting married a few days before Christmas. I’m a bridesmaid and my daughter is a flower girl and we’re so honoured and excited! With that comes dress fittings and hen dos and wedding rehearsals and shopping for shoes and nail appointments and all the rest of it. Again, all lovely, but very busy! My calendar has never looked so full.

All you parents will understand just how much preparation goes into a day trip with young children, let alone an all day wedding and overnight stay. I have lists EVERYWHERE. I find preparation is key when dealing with young children and events. I’m considering packing a whole bag with just snacks and stickers. That should do it.

Last week we were hit with ALL THE SNOW which is almost unheard of for us. The kids loved it and even though I’m not usually a fan, it was beautiful and really got us in a Christmassy mood. However we were pretty much snowed in for 5 days, so not much was being achieved and ticked off the to do list!

I’ve been feeling productive though and I’ve managed to tick off most things now. I wanted to enjoy the Christmas break and not be stressing over wrapping presents so I’ve forced myself to get stuff done, I’m usually Queen Procrastinator. (Oh I need to fill in this form? Well I better just tidy my sock drawer first… )

I’m not bragging though, my house is a complete mess and I REALLY need to wash my hair but something’s gotta give!

Little Knight had her last day at preschool today and my husband only has 2 days left of work so we’re all getting ready for a nice break. This is probably the only time in the year where my husband is off work and we’re just at home, normally it’s for a holiday or event or whatever, so just having time at home together is really special.

Christmas Day will be fairly relaxed too. We’ll be home in the morning, even though we always spend Christmas with family we like to keep these few hours to just the 4 of us, then off to church and then to my parents house for the rest of the day where I’ll probably put my pjs on at 2pm. Perfect.

How’re your festive preparations going? Hope it’s not too stressful! How do you plan on celebrating? I love hearing about other people’s Christmas traditions.

Thanks for reading and Merry Christmas!

Knight Mummy x

Starting Nursery.

So, Little Knight starts Nursery NEXT. WEEK. This post is a bit rough and raw but reading it over and over to edit is making me feel so sad. So this is it. 
I ordered name labels and bought all of the things she needed ages ago, thinking it was still ages away so I didn’t have to think about it too much. However, now it’s next week and I need to get her all ready to go when I’m not feeling very ready at all.

Now, when I’m being logical I KNOW that this will be brilliant. She will get so much more stimulation than I can provide and will thrive with the other children. The teachers are all lovely and she’ll learn so much. We will all benefit from having more structure and routine to our days and the weekends will be extra special. I’ll actually have some 1:1 time with Baby Knight too which we’ll both love.

But, I’m not the kind of person who is always logical. I am a sensitive soul and wear my heart on my sleeve. And so is my girl. How will she cope without me? What if people aren’t kind? What if they don’t understand what she’s saying? What if she struggles with her coat? What if she thinks I’ve deserted her? Etc etc etc.

Little Knight has never been away from me, my husband or immediate family before. She used to really struggle when separated from us but has improved so much over the last year. This is just the next step. But it feels like a huge one! 
I cannot wait to read this back in a few months and think “it wasn’t even that bad!” Right now I just keep thinking of her first week of drop offs and it makes me feel so sad. We talk about nursery all the time and she’s excited to go but I know when I say goodbye she’s going to get really upset and I’m going to have to do my best big smile, kiss and goodbye. I’m sure I’ll then cry all the way home and sit and look at baby photos of her whilst clock watching. Such a great use of time.

We’ve planned an exciting trip at the weekend to celebrate her first week. I think it’ll be nice for us both to have something to look forward to and we’ll both need a treat! Then we can just rest as she’ll probably be exhausted. 
I know a lot of you will probably be reading this thinking “IT’S NURSERY! Stop being so dramatic!” but I won’t write a chirpy little post when I’m finding it so emotional. Please let me know if you felt similarly or how your child settled into childcare/nursery/pre school. I’m hoping I won’t be the only teary parent at the school gates!

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

Turning three.

So it’s happened. My little baby, the one who made me a mama, has had her THIRD birthday and it feels so incredibly grown up!

Turning 3 means big changes in the Knight household as she’ll be starting nursery in September. I have really mixed emotions about it all and it’s weighing on my mind but I think I’ll give it a post of it’s own.


ANYWAY. We had a super busy couple of weeks in July. Baby Knight had his dedication at church and then we had a family garden party to celebrate. (WHY is it such hard work hosting at your own home?! I ended up painting 16 fence panels that week when in reality nobody cares about my fence!) Little Knight also had a home visit from her teachers and then a ‘stay and play’ session at nursery. It was my husband’s birthday and then Little Knight’s birthday within a few days of each other. Whilst all of this was happening I was prepping and packing for a week holidaying in Devon. I was relieved to finally get away!

We kept Little Knight’s actual birthday quite relaxed due to being so busy. I felt a bit guilty about not planning her a party (yes, I’m that mother who feels The Guilt about everything.) but she really enjoyed being able to play with all of her presents throughout the day. 
The next day we packed up the car and embarked on a 3.5 hour drive to Devon. The kids were brilliant and we only had to stop once which was much better than I dared hope for. We stayed in a Manor House and were very well looked after by the lovely lady who owned it. My parents, sister, brother in law and niece all came too and we all had THE BEST time.
We ate scones, went to the beach, shopped, went swimming, visited beautiful little towns and generally just enjoyed spending time together. Baby Knight and Little Knight were so well behaved and just loved being busy and going out all the time. 
We had a little tea party on the Sunday evening so that Little Knight could have a birthday cake. Every time I had asked her what she wanted for her birthday in the weeks previous she had just requested a birthday cake. I’m enjoying that while it lasts as I imagine next year I might get a shopping list. 
We’ve never been to this part of Devon before so we had lots of exploring to do. Little Knight started each morning with a “So. What we doing today?”

Mr Knight hadn’t used any annual leave for months so we really appreciated having a whole week of quality time together. It’s a lot easier getting out and about when you’re not outnumbered! We’ve all already booked to come back again next year as we enjoyed it so much and I can’t wait! It’s a bit crazy to imagine as Little Knight will be finishing her year of nursery and getting ready for SCHOOL (you think I’m being dramatic this year, just wait!) and Baby Knight will be running around.

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

Learning from my children.

I had a complete parenting fail this morning. Earlier in the week I had signed us up for a new baby and toddler class and I was feeling so brave going somewhere brand new on my own with both of them.

It didn’t quite go to plan but my children taught me an important lesson today about looking at life with positive eyes.

This is how the morning went from my view:

We were rushing about getting ready AS ALWAYS and left the house a little later than I wanted. I had quickly checked how far away it was on my phone and it said 20 minutes. We arrived 35 minutes later and I was EXHAUSTED as the walk was full of hills, I had the pushchair and buggy board to push and obviously we were late so I was practically jogging. Oh and did I mention that it was raining? Classic. So we get there and I just could not find the class, we were walking around for another 10 minutes and there was no sign of it. When I checked my phone properly I realised we had gone to completely the wrong place, by which time we’d missed the class anyway.

So we started the wet hike home. My daughter had been so excited to go and although she handled it well, I still felt awful so we went to the shop where I bought her a Kinder Egg and a pack of cookie mix to bake at home to ease my mama guilt. 

By the time we got home, we had been out for 1 hour and 30 minutes FOR ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

However, after chatting to my daughter, I realised that if you were to ask my children what we did this morning, it would look a little different. 

Baby Knight is 5 months old and just loves being in the pushchair so he was thrilled to have an hour and a half long walk.

Little Knight thought the rain was so exciting. She stood on her buggy board singing her heart out and loved pointing out dogs/buses/an ambulance etc. We even found a family of snails as it was raining! She couldn’t go to the class BUT we then went to the shop and she chose a Kinder Egg, which are her favourites, and inside was the last Barbie that she needed to complete her collection! She was so happy! We then got some cookies to do some baking when we got home. 


My children actually had a really good morning and didn’t think their mother was a complete waste of space.

Actually, here are some positives from our morning:

  • My kids are happy.
  • I had a cracking workout so tonight I can just chill out.
  • It filled our morning.
  • We all had some fresh air.
  • Baby Knight had a good nap.
  • We have cookie mix so we have an afternoon activity.
  • We can just go to the class next week.

There is something so beautiful about our children’s perspective on life and I think we can all learn something from them from time to time.


Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

The second born.

When I had my first baby, she had my complete attention 24/7 (which is good as that’s when she was hungry!). From a very young age we had Parent and Baby groups, Baby Massage, swimming lessons, Tumble Tots and would often go out for long walks which would involve a coffee shop.

This time things are a little bit different. My little boy’s “social life” is basically being dragged along to his big sister’s activities and going to have his immunisations. What a hoot.


I would often just sit and cuddle my daughter whilst she slept and we could spend hours snuggling on the sofa. My son rarely has that luxury as I have to feed/clean up after/play with his sister so if he’s not being fed himself, he is often in his bouncy chair or on his play gym. Which were actually bought for his sister and now they’re his.

I made sure I wrote in Little Knight’s baby record book fairly regularly whilst Baby Knight doesn’t even have one.

Before I sound like the worst mother on earth, the one thing he has exactly the same of is love. Oh my goodness. This boy is absolutely delicious and I adore every ounce of him.


I had been feeling very conscious of the fact that he hasn’t had the same treatment (oh hey there mama guilt!). But when I really think about it, I think he has a pretty sweet deal.

For a start, I’ve done this mothering thing for a few years now and whilst I’ll never claim to be an expert, I know a lot more than the first time! With Little Knight I was always worrying about how much milk she was getting or if she’d napped or the temperature of the room or if she had socks to match every outfit (true story). Whilst I obviously enjoyed her babyhood, I am so much more relaxed this time round. I can SEE that’s he’s happy and healthy. Nothing else actually matters.


He also has my shining star of a daughter as Big Sister right from the beginning and she ADORES him. Their relationship is really incredible and I’m so happy that they have been blessed with a sibling, it’s a bond like no other.


So maybe he doesn’t go to loads of classes or have my undivided attention all day but he does have a (mostly) calm and confident mother who knows now that time goes so quickly. When I’m feeding him or if he does snooze on me, I make sure to really drink him in. They are babies for such a short time and I want to enjoy as much as I can. Also, Little Knight starts nursery in September (whole post on its own) and I’m determined to try some sort of baby activity.


This sweet boy has come in and made our family feel complete. It may have taken us nearly 4 months to get any photos up of him but who cares? He lights up when we talk to him and has started gurgling back at us. My boy wants for nothing and is surrounded by so much love.

Matching socks are boring anyway.

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

A little Spanish getaway.

What is the only thing more terrifying than taking young children to the supermarket?

Young children on an aeroplane.

Yes, that’s a 10 week old baby and a 2 and a half year old toddler in a busy airport and then sat on a plane for 3 hours.

Tensions were high, and we didn’t always keep our cool (including an empty threat of having to get off the plane mid flight if she didn’t stop screaming…) but overall it was much better than we anticipated and we had the best week.


To be honest, negotiating the airport whilst juggling bags, jackets and children was probably the most stressful part. We left home at 6am on Thursday morning and kept the kids in their pjs for comfort and convenience. We were really lucky as they let us fast track through security, probably out of pity!

We bought Little Knight a Trunki suitcase which she was so excited to use and put her favourite small teddies, books and figures in. I then added some new magazines (which probably cost the same as the whole holiday), a sticker book and some Kinder Surprise eggs as a real treat. It also meant that she could ride through the airport when her poor legs were tired. 


Little Knight had a suitcase full of entertainment and we had the portable DVD player as back up and for the most part, all was calm. Even on a good day at home we have little blips, she is 2 afterall, so we were thrilled.

Baby Knight obviously didn’t have a clue what was happening and just carried on as usual. I wore him in the airport, which he loves, to keep our hands free.


We then spent 7 days enjoying Malaga! We stayed with my grandparents who live there so we always go to the same area which I love as we know where things are and what we like to do. I always get ‘new-place-anxiety’ so this really works for us.


We had beach days, we went to a zoo, we spent HOURS in the swimming pool, Little Knight ate endless ice cream. It was bliss. Obviously very different to our pre-children holidays, you never actually relax unless they’re asleep, but we had a lot of fun and it was really special to spend so much quality time together. We were really sad to leave!


One thing I want to say about travelling with children though, I found anyway, is that people are so kind. It’s easy to think that everyone is against you and will be really annoyed by your children’s presence, Mr Knight and I were so worried about going! We couldn’t have been more wrong though. The staff were brilliant, they fast tracked us through queues, made the time to speak to my daughter, gave her stickers to play with when we had to wait. I know it’s their job, but I felt really looked after and it just made everything feel more relaxed. The general public are also such a kind bunch! We had countless offers of help and everyone was full of smiles for our children. We had to get a little bus from the airport to the plane and Baby Knight was screaming as he wanted to be fed but instead of being annoyed, so many people were talking to us both or smiling or chatting to my daughter about her exciting holiday. I really encourage you to be that kind person if you get the chance, it made such a big difference to us. I make an effort to smile at people much more now and spread a little positivity. You never know who needs it.


ANYWAY. That went off an a tangent. We had such a great week away. It was lovely to spend quality time with my grandparents, my Nan is just the best host ever. After all of the panic about packing and travelling, I’d do it all again tomorrow if I could!


Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

And then there were two.

I have been the mother of two for one whole month now and whilst the days are often long, I can’t believe that our boy has been here for all that time already.


People often ask how we are getting on now that Mr Knight is back at work and I just reply with “yeah, we’re all fine!” Because we are. But wow, it is HARD. I feel constantly split between the toddler, the baby and the house whilst still recovering from giving birth (which you can read about here) a few weeks ago. It can be a bit overwhelming!

Have you ever tried to breastfeed whilst wrapping Teletubbies up in Play Doh? This is my reality now!


My house is constantly a mess regardless of how much time I spend cleaning. My to-do list just seems to keep growing. Little Knight’s tantrums are getting ever more epic. Baby Knight is sleeping less and feeding more in the daytime. My husband just gets a ‘freezer tea’ every night. It takes us FOREVER to leave the house. Sometimes I feel like I may as well have 20 children!

But when I see my two gorgeous babies together, all that just becomes the details. And it’s completely true that your love for your children doubles and not halves.


We’re still figuring out our own routine but it’s all good fun. I’ve learned to lower all of my expectations, so what if all we achieve in a day is being dressed and fed? I have two happy and healthy babies. Nobody wants to be washing up anyway!

If someone offers their help, I take it! Nobody is handing out medals for doing it all on your own.

I also now do a weekly to-do list as I found I was feeling rubbish when I wasn’t ticking anything off when I did a daily one.

Most importantly, I recognise how difficult it all can be and try to remember to be especially kind to myself on the tough days. Of which there are plenty! I swear that a cup of tea and the biscuit tin are soul cleansing.

 

 

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

 Another labour story.

Picture the scene. It was Saturday night and I was 2 days overdue and MISERABLE. For the last few weeks I could barely walk with SPD, feeling almost constantly sick and everything gave me heartburn. Mr Knight took the toddler up to bed whilst I grumpily bounced around on my gym ball. And what do you know, hello contractions! They started at about 9:30pm and gathered momentum pretty quickly.

At about 11pm we called my mom who was on stand by for Little Knight and I started using a TENS machine (which I recommend if you’re thinking about it). I managed to stay at home until about 1am when we went to hospital as my contractions were about 2 minutes apart and lasting about 1 minute each.

I was quite apprehensive about going to hospital as last time I was in labour (which you can read about here) I was only 2-3cm dilated when we got there so I really didn’t want that to be the case this time. You can imagine how relieved I was when the midwife said I was 8-9cm!

I went off to a delivery room with a very lovely midwife and got straight on the gas and air! I continued to labour for the next couple of hours and things got very intense! She broke my waters at about 3:30am and I was almost immediately ready to push!

Now that is something I’ll never forget. I completely lost my mind. I may have bitten my husband. It was horrific. But after less than half an hour my baby BURST into the room (facing upwards and causing some SERIOUS damage on the way out!) and placed straight on my chest.

I just lay there in complete shock. I was in the worst pain of my life and then suddenly this slimy baby was lying on me.

MY BOY! Weighing 8lb 14oz.


Mr Knight was able to cut the umbilical cord and I had him for a few minutes before I had to go to theatre due to 3rd degree tearing. Told you he burst out!

An hour later we were reunited in the recovery room where he had his first feed and we were able to start spreading the good news. We soon got settled into a hospital ward, I was in a lot of pain and was feeling very poorly as I’d lost over a litre of blood so we weren’t going anywhere!


We stayed in hospital for another day. I had to have a catheter in for 24 hours as I’d had a spinal block in theatre and I didn’t have the strength to walk due to the blood loss. I was also full of grazes and black with bruising so I needed to be where all the painkillers were!

The next day we were allowed home, armed with a bag full of drugs, at about 3pm. I was so excited to see Little Knight as it’s the longest we’ve ever been apart, and never overnight. She was so excited to meet her baby brother! Her face lit up when she saw us and she was full of cuddles and kisses for him. We’re so proud of her.


It’s now a week later and we are just enjoying day to day life as a family of four. I’m starting to feel like myself again already and recovery is going well, stitches are looking good and my bruising is going down now. I feel like an actual hero that I managed to labour and give birth with minimal pain relief and without any intervention. I was so keen to have a VBAC (Vaginal Birth After Caesarean) but I don’t think I really believed that I was actually strong enough to do it. Now I feel like I could do anything!

He is perfect. He’s feeding beautifully and managed to put on an ounce in his first week. I could just stare at his gorgeous face all day.


We purposely haven’t had any visitors apart from immediate family for the first week as I felt so overwhelmed last time and I enjoy being in our little newborn bubble.

As you can imagine things are a little busier these days so my posts might be few and far between for a while. Thanks so much for reading.

Knight Mummy x