The last feed.

So, after 2 years and 2 months, we are all done.

When Little Knight was first born I was so determined to make it to 6 months so I’m really proud of how long we’ve managed. Right from the start I had let her lead the way with breastfeeding, always on demand, day and night, and this worked for us.


After her 2nd birthday I knew things were coming to a close. She was wanting such short comfort feeds and I was feeling like I had had enough. I was early pregnant and it was a lot for my body to manage. I knew that she didn’t really need it anymore, if ever I wasn’t around she would never ask for milk.


She was still feeding in the night so after 2 years I was EXHAUSTED. These feeds were the first to go! I just told her that milk was all gone and offered her water and gave her lots of cuddles instead. She was not very impressed by this at first but I stayed strong and after a really tough week we’d cracked it. If she woke in the night we’d have a little cuddle and she’d go straight back to sleep. Now she doesn’t wake up much at all and always goes straight back to sleep if she does.


We were then left with two feeds a day; nap time and bedtime. I kept these going until our holiday incase she needed a feed on the plane for her ears and to be honest I didn’t want to upset her when we were away from home. The day after we came back she had her last feed cuddled up in our bed. Even though I’ve been ready to stop for a few months, I still felt really sad about it. This had been our special bond for over two years and it was emotional seeing it come to an end. She was obviously ready though as we only had a few tears at nap time for three days and then she stopped asking for milk. Now I just cuddle her and she has her bottle of water. And that’s that!

My hormones have been a bit wild this week which may be a combination of stopping breastfeeding and the pregnancy but I’m really hoping they’ll settle soon. I feel like such a sad bear!

Now my little girl has left another ‘baby stage’ behind. She really is growing up fast and it’s both amazing and heartbreaking at the same time. I’m so proud of her. I was worried that because I was stopping breastfeeding instead of letting her decide she was ready that she would struggle but she’s coped so well. And I can wear what I like now!*


Did anyone else notice any changes when they stopped breastfeeding?

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x
*That I can actually fit into! I’m 23 weeks pregnant and already look like I ate a bowling ball.

Breastfeeding style

I’ve said a few times that I struggled through pregnancy but on those occasions when I wasn’t grey, I felt like I looked fantastic! I really enjoyed my new pregnant body and found it easy to choose clothes that made me feel good. I loved showing off my bump! Then I had my gorgeous girl and my stomach was left looking like a shrivelled balloon and I had the added issue of breastfeeding. I suddenly needed constant access to my boobs whilst wanting to disguise my new tummy and obviously I still wanted to look good and feel like my old self as much as possible.

I’ve been breastfeeding for 14 months now and here are just a few tricks I’ve learnt along the way.  If you’re in a similar position I hope you find this useful and I save you some time!

  • Buy at least 2 nursing vest tops.

I have one in black, 2 in navy and one in white and I wear them under EVERYTHING.  It then means you can easily pull up your top to feed your baby and feel confident that you are still covered up. Any vest top will work but the convenience of those nursing clips is worth the money, especially when you’re out in public with a hungry baby. Mine are from H&M MAMA range and they are just as good now as when I bought them.

If in doubt, copy your toddler.

  • Anything button down is your friend.

Fortunately, shirts and shirt dresses are everywhere now and you can get so many variations on style that there is something to suit everyone. I loved being able to buy a normal piece of clothing from a non maternity range and feel good in it. Obviously button down means easy access. I like dresses where I can cinch in my waist as I find them the most flattering. It’s getting colder now and I’ll just throw on some tights with the same outfits.

Buttons everywhere!

  • Bandeau tops can adapt anything.

If you want to wear a strapless dress for example (or just something without big, fat bra straps) you can wear a bandeau bra or boob tube underneath to keep you covered up and in place and you can just pull it down a bit when feeding.

  • Don’t completely dismiss maternity clothes.

Certain pieces will still work and most maternity tops and dresses have a nursing function. I actually bought a maternity dress for Little Knight’s birthday party as it was a skater style so wasn’t tummy-skimming and had a hidden panel for nursing. Just have a look through your maternity things and see what will still work.

The top part lifts up to reveal a nursing button (ASOS)

  • Wrap tops/dresses.

Just a wardrobe classic for anyone really, never go out of style and suit all different body shapes. They are super easy to breastfeed in and always make me feel very put together.

  • Throw on a scarf.

I feel like a scarf can add interest to an otherwise simple outfit and they can also be used as a nursing cover. You can also get really pretty ones for a couple of quid and they will always fit.

I’m not saying I put a pretty dress on everyday after Little Knight was born. Let’s be realistic, I lived in my maternity leggings until they ripped and I had to bin them. This is just for those times when you do have 5 minutes and want to spend them on yourself (which is ok, honest!) Breastfeeding in public can be daunting at first and I always felt more confident when I was in an outfit with easy access!

If you have any other tips please share them, I’d love to know!

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x

Breastfeeding, so far.

I’ve been quite reluctant to write about breastfeeding in fear of unintentionally offending or upsetting someone. But it’s such a big part of my life now that I feel it’s ridiculous to keep shying away from it. It’s National Breastfeeding Week so that seemed as good a time as any to chat about our breastfeeding story so far.

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We were really fortunate that Baby Knight took to breastfeeding straight away. I was really worried about it as we missed out on skin-to-skin due to her spending time in neonatal but she latched perfectly. HUGE RELIEF! I was convinced we’d got it and would have zero issues from then on. Bless me! Whilst I was still in hospital, Baby Knight refused to feed for HOURS. A few midwives tried to help but in the end the breastfeeding consultant visited us and helped me express colostrum on a tiny spoon. Once she’d got a taste for it we were back in action the same day. The hospital staff were brilliant so make sure you ask for help and support if you need it and don’t leave until you’re happy.

So we went home and settled into life with Baby Knight feeding every 40 minutes in the early days. Seriously. That kid can eat! (Just like her mother) So it’s no wonder really that I then had to deal with the horror of cracking and bleeding. My health visitor was really helpful and with a combination of lanolin cream, silicone shields and the fact that I am stubborn as hell we made it through. But I don’t want to make light of those early weeks as it was really difficult and I know a lot of women struggle at the start. I would dread having to feed her, my heart would sink when she would cry as I knew it would hurt. At times I would bite on a rolled up muslin to cope with each feed. Then I would be left feeling like the worst mother ever as I didn’t want to feed my own baby.

It was difficult but I had a lot of support, I knew I could move onto formula at any time but I just knew I could battle through this. The best advice I had was someone telling me it would get better and to just persevere. Now, please don’t come after me with pitchforks! I know that it is not the case for so many women and this is not a post bashing mothers who use formula straight away or only breastfeed for a short amount of time. I honestly believe in doing what is best for your own family and I was really nervous about putting this up for this reason. This is just my personal experience.

All mothers are amazing and should be confident in the choices they make for their family.

For me, it did get better. Not over night but gradually the pain decreased and now it feels like the most natural thing in the world. Baby Knight is 11 months old and we’re still going strong and I have no intention of stopping any time soon.

Multi-tasking

Multi-tasking

I’ve always used a breastfeeding cover when out and about which I would really recommend. For me, it was perfect in the early days as I could sort myself out and get her latched on without feeling like I had to rush to cover myself up. I never felt uncomfortable breastfeeding in public and I’ve even had people compliment on how pretty the covers are. I have a lot to cover up too so they help me to feel confident that I can feed her wherever I am, regardless of who is around. Now she is older they stop her from being distracted by what’s going on around her and allow her to concentrate on feeding.

I also use an app to time her feeds. This was useful in the early days as midwives/health visitors would often ask about her feeds and I was able to tell them roughly how many she had in a day and through the night, how long she was feeding for and the time inbetween her feeds. I also found it useful to know which side she was due to feed on next, when you’re sleep deprived it can be so difficult to remember! I still use the app just because I’m one of those mothers who likes a record of her feeds. Obviously I don’t know how much she is having so I like that I can see a rough guide on how she’s getting on.

So! To conclude, if you are struggling, PLEASE ask for help. I’m super lucky as one of my good friends is a breastfeeding buddy so if I ever have any questions she helps me out. You can find support from your midwife, your health visitor, find your local breastfeeding support group, use one of the many breastfeeding helplines, chat to other breastfeeding mothers. Nowadays there is so much help available that if you do choose to breastfeed, you don’t have to struggle on your own.

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It is one of the most natural things in the world but it doesn’t always feel like it. It’s so hard sometimes! So pat yourself on the back, regardless of how long you breastfeed for, and be proud of yourself!

Thanks for reading,

Knight Mummy x