So, Little Knight starts Nursery NEXT. WEEK. This post is a bit rough and raw but reading it over and over to edit is making me feel so sad. So this is it.
I ordered name labels and bought all of the things she needed ages ago, thinking it was still ages away so I didn’t have to think about it too much. However, now it’s next week and I need to get her all ready to go when I’m not feeling very ready at all.
Now, when I’m being logical I KNOW that this will be brilliant. She will get so much more stimulation than I can provide and will thrive with the other children. The teachers are all lovely and she’ll learn so much. We will all benefit from having more structure and routine to our days and the weekends will be extra special. I’ll actually have some 1:1 time with Baby Knight too which we’ll both love.
But, I’m not the kind of person who is always logical. I am a sensitive soul and wear my heart on my sleeve. And so is my girl. How will she cope without me? What if people aren’t kind? What if they don’t understand what she’s saying? What if she struggles with her coat? What if she thinks I’ve deserted her? Etc etc etc.
Little Knight has never been away from me, my husband or immediate family before. She used to really struggle when separated from us but has improved so much over the last year. This is just the next step. But it feels like a huge one!
I cannot wait to read this back in a few months and think “it wasn’t even that bad!” Right now I just keep thinking of her first week of drop offs and it makes me feel so sad. We talk about nursery all the time and she’s excited to go but I know when I say goodbye she’s going to get really upset and I’m going to have to do my best big smile, kiss and goodbye. I’m sure I’ll then cry all the way home and sit and look at baby photos of her whilst clock watching. Such a great use of time.
We’ve planned an exciting trip at the weekend to celebrate her first week. I think it’ll be nice for us both to have something to look forward to and we’ll both need a treat! Then we can just rest as she’ll probably be exhausted.
I know a lot of you will probably be reading this thinking “IT’S NURSERY! Stop being so dramatic!” but I won’t write a chirpy little post when I’m finding it so emotional. Please let me know if you felt similarly or how your child settled into childcare/nursery/pre school. I’m hoping I won’t be the only teary parent at the school gates!
Thanks for reading,
Knight Mummy x